Summer Nights, Make it last forever!
Summer Nights, Make it last forever!
GOTHIC QUARTER BARCELONA
One of the many beautiful areas in Barcelona.
MY IMMORTAL by EVANESCENCE
*this was the exact location they filmed the music video*
HOW I KICKED OFF MY SUMMER 2016
Can’t Stop The Feeling – Justin Timberlake
Thank you once again for allowing me to share my journey and travels with all of you.
Grazie – Merci – AMORE.
The minute the clock strikes midnight morning of March 8, my phone blows up with text messages and even a call from my parents. I didn’t answer or even reply back, and just put my phone on silent so I can at least get some sleep. This year hasn’t been the greatest and all I wanted was to get my 10k run for the Susan G Komen race for the cure that was coming up that weekend, which I signed up for months prior, otherwise I would’ve been somewhere exotic the day of my birthday so I can spend it alone.
A year ago I had a huge birthday. I planned it big. I flew people I had close ties with from around the country to celebrate with. I was surrounded by people who I thought were my friends. Since it fell on a Sunday, I had that typical Los Angeles “Sunday Funday” where you would go have brunch and needed that mimosa or bloody mary for pre-game, followed by a club lounge that had a DJ and of course plenty of drinks that was being handed to me without hesitation. I’ve always pictured a huge birthday, and that’s how I planned it last year. But little did I know, more than half of these people that came to my birthday last year I do not even talk to anymore. I had to purposely cut them off due to certain circumstances, however I did briefly mention is in previous blogs. I realized that these people were fake to begin with, artificial, and only wanted to become friends to get what they want. Because of this I started to lose trust and became a little depressed, not because of losing them as friends but because of how the situation occurred. When one person likes to brain wash other people and use them as minions, then that is fine. Go ahead and be a follower and live that way.
Within this year, my sister’s cancer did come back and luckily everything turned out ok. However, my cousin passed away Christmas night. Long story short they found a tumor in her brain, went into operation and doctors messed up. It took a toll on my family, especially during the holidays. Heartbreaking on how much I really wanted to be there for them when I couldn’t because they were thousands of miles away. I felt alone. I felt lost and really could not turn to anyone when I was stuck in my room in Los Angeles, just empty. I did talk for my sister for a bit but I did not want her to hear my pain so I cut her off short. I really felt like I could not reach out to anyone because crying out for help in my part I did not think would work. These other people I thought who were my friends did it, and I was there for them in a heartbeat. Divorces, relationship break ups, surgery in the hospital, my ass was there the minute they needed it. But when a family member was sick or a death in the family occurs, I did not have anyone. Alone.
With the fallout of the fakes I traveled a lot more. I been to places I never thought I’d go or wouldn’t have thought I would make an effort to go to. I went skydiving to release it all out, I tried to go to exotic places to just get my mind at ease and to just clear it. I’m doing races for breast cancer in honor of my sister not only to raise money but to raise awareness for women and men to get checked. It helped a lot. But my blood boils and anxiety occurs when I think of it until this day. But it’s ok because I didn’t realize how much of a stronger person I am today than I was last year. I’m a very sensitive person, I put my heart into everything and I got used. I just have to fight the pain in order to get through it. The pain emotional pain that I go through is nothing of the pain that my sister and my cousin and even my cousin went through. Your relationship break ups is nothing.
So this day, a year older, I do have amazing family friends and I still count. I keep telling myself that I don’t need that many friends or even any friends at all. If you followed me on here and see what I’ve done, I did everything alone, independent. I’m more wise than I was last year. Besides I have friends internationally that I still keep in touch with. So when I’m at home I do my own thing. I get things done, try to stay healthy, do 10Ks try to help raise awareness for cancer, and save my energy to travel and see the world. That’s my therapy. So my birthday was intimate, with close friends with laughs and just fun. Followed by the 10K race the Saturday after, then flew off to Mexico for a week where I met some great people out there. I’m very social so it is no problem for me to go out there and make more friends, but at my age I just don’t have that energy anymore. I still have people that I can count on. However my guard is still up and my trust in people is very limited and I proceed with caution, even with my close friends now, I’m still working on that. Family is always first, and if i don’t have friends. That’s fine. I’ll still continue doing what I’m doing. Trying to make a difference, travel, and at least inspire and bring a smile to peoples face. Happy Birthday.
With a rough couple of months, I finally came at ease. With a new year, a new age, it’s time to make changes for the better. I’ve learned to let go, move on, and realize the finer things in life. At 33, I’m blessed with loved ones that know the meaning of LOVE, FRIENDSHIP, and LOYALTY.
I decided to treat myself for a birthday trip. Originally I was supposed to head to the Caribbean but things had to take a different turn because of vacation time. So I was able to book a last minute trip to Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. When you have that feeling, take it, and pass it on.
Everyone pretty much knows that I owned it when it came to traveling this year. But the thing is, I OWNED 2015. A lot of it had to do with figuring out who I am, who my real friends are, and who needed me the most. I lost friends, but I gained my self dignity and pride in myself. Yeah it hurts, but I am a lot more happier than I was earlier this year. I had to eliminate a lot of the FAKE, THE PLASTICS, the ones who do not know what is going on for their lives and trying to reach what they THINK they need. For me, I just want to live life, have fun.
BALL SO HARD I’M SHOCKED TOO
I’M SUPPOSED TO BE LOCKED UP TOO
YOU ESCAPED WHAT I’VE ESCAPED
YOU’D BE IN PARIS GETTING F***ED UP TOO
“THERE’S SOMETHING ABOUT LOSING YOURSELF IN THE RHYTHM THAT MAKES YOU FEEL SO ALIVE”
i would usually make a video of my trips i would take. here’s something different.
“Sometimes you just need a break in a beautiful place alone, to figure everything out.”
When you need some time to get away, the best way to do it is going into a city you never been to.
I decided to take an international quick getaway somewhere i’ve never been outside of the U.S. With a lot going on I felt that it was time I needed to go somewhere for some R&R, and since traveling is my therapy I needed to jetset.
The vibrant city reminds me of every other metropolis but with flavor and culture. The food, the music, the people, their style really intrigued me before I even visited.
I stayed in a hotel which was a 15minute bus ride outside of the city. I didn’t bother to use a map, but instead asked the concierge what was the easiest way to get into the city. And he told me by bus. I took the 133 which took me right into the city and it brought me into the middle of the area. As I took the bus into the city, I got to see the neighborhoods, and even Colegios as I was on my way into the city.
The bus took me into the middle of the Centro de Madrid, the busy part and major tourist attraction where all the gift shops and shopping is done. I walked everywhere, figured how to get to places on my own by foot. Without using a map, i spoke with the locals, and asked where the suggested places to eat, drink, go to clubs, listen to music, have a cafè and to also relax.
I tend to go into places where the locals go to rather than the major tourist attractions were just to get a better feel of the history and culture of not only the city but the country as well. The madrileños love where they are from, and the Spañiards are proud of their country. They take care of themselves, they have the best food, they love music, and they take in everything that their country has to offer.
I literally had no idea where to go. But walking by foot I was able to find the most beautiful streets, architecture, and the lively culture of the city and was very overwhelmed in a good way. I had to take everything in and be in the moment.
When you get lost you just keep going, figure things out on your own especially when you’re in a different country alone, and Madrid helped me to find a way into seeing what a beauty that this world has to offer. You put all the issues aside and just take in the moment. There are times in our lives where we need a break, and this one was needed. I regained and was able to find myself.